I’m so tired. I’m tired of everyone and everything…I’m tired of myself.

I feel like my identity changes everyday. I never know who I am or what I want out of life.

Why would God allow anyone to go through this? I am sincerly seeking out his help everyday, and I guess I’ve grown so spiritually exhausted that I just don’t care about practicig Islam anymore…maybe that’s why? I want to be strong in my iman. Where is God, exactly? When people (not just me) are suffering everyday of their lives, where is God to ease their suffering? There’s so much suffering in this world and no trace of God ending it.

People tell me “read or listen to the Quran” “read the Bible” in order for me to feel better…I’ve done both and neither work. I’m still stuck with myself every second of every day wondering when I’m going to be happy with who I am as a person.